*GASP* you can't keep me down for your convenience and benefit?!

to expand on my last post- the nurse who fills my anodyne machine came today to refill my medications in it for the week. she said to me while i was playing some game on my cell phone to just keep me occupied, "you're always doing something! i was thinking about you the other day and i remember when you were just in an electric wheelchair! NOW YOU'RE HERE.. JUST WALKING AROUND! IT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE SO STUBBORN AND YOU DON'T LET PEOPLE TELL YOU WHAT TO DO!" then i responded with a little laugh, "heh.. yeah- i can still remember when i went to dr. schuh in his office and asked him to write out a prescription for me to do physical therapy at the courage center and he tried to explain to me that some people just have to spend the rest of their lives in wheelchairs.." i honestly don't remember anything else he said after that because i don't pay attention to people who are negative nancies trying to discourage me from doing something i KNOW i have the ability and capability to do JUST so they can make money off me. i can't tell you how many times i've heard "STACY, A HARD HEAD MAKES A SOFT ASS." in the past. as long as i have the ability to move my arms and legs.. I'M GONNA DO IT TO MY GREATEST ABILITY. GO TRY TO MAKE SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T KNOW WHAT THEY'RE CAPABLE OF WHAT TO DO. i have too much life left for people to take advantage of my situation just because THEY could NEVER do half the shit i've done to help myself get where i am today- NO. THEY ALL ASSUME I'M TOO HANDICAP TO DO ANYTHING AND THEY'D APPEAR MORE CARING AND SUPPORTIVE IF THEY UNDERESTIMATED ME AND TRIED TO HAVE ME CONTINUE TO GET A SAD EXCUSE OF A "REHABILITATION INSTITUTE" BUSINESS- EVEN IF I HAVE MORE CAPABILITY AND ABILITY TO DO THE SHIT THEY'RE TRYING TO CONVINCE ME "HELPS" ME OVER AND OVER- SO THEY CAN CONTINUE APPEAR "HELPING". i advise anyone who is disabled who really wants to help theirselves and progress in life NOT to even waste their time at courage kenny. they help you continue to be handicap and attempt to keep you satisfied with it (i say "attempt" because it obviously DIDN'T work with me). EVEN my past psychologist said that a bunch of his clients told him the SAME thing i did. if you wanna see someone go to fuckin courage kenny- YOU go there. what's that? you're not in the condition to go there? I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. CAN IT. just put yourself in MY shoes. i know empathy is difficult for unintelligent people. that's another reason why i'm STILL a resident of this state over 10 years when my grandma used to CLAIM that "amanda will get you to new york!". lack of advocacy.. and care.